On ‘The Resonance,’ Saint Precious Sings For Her Trans Siblings

Those themes of resilience, freedom, and euphoria run throughout The Resonance. On “Sanctum,” Precious sings of feeling seen and loved in a way she could have hoped for or imagined. A self-proclaimed hopeless romantic, the track was inspired by a picnic date she went on with an ex that left her with a feeling of elation. She had just started taking hormones, and felt insecure at the time, “but I knew damn well who I was,” she maintains. Most of the relationship was confined to her apartment due to her boyfriend’s fears of how, as she puts it, “he would be perceived being with a girl like me.” But one day, the boyfriend realized he wanted to take their relationship public, meet Precious’ friends, and take her on an idyllic “Disney fantasy” date. As she sat with her lover on a white picnic blanket covered in roses, Precious says she was “totally without dysphoria,” adding with a cheeky smile, “It was like I had taken a tranny Xanax.” The sultry song is fleeting and ephemeral, reflecting the effervescence of the moment that inspired it. “Being out in the dating sphere as a trans woman you have shortness of breath all the time,” she says, “You never know if you’re going to go away from a guy without being slapped or screamed at for any goddamn reason.”

The Resonance is also a deeply spiritual work — a manifestation of Precious’ own revelations about the existence of God in her life. “This EP is also not just bound to gender,” she notes, “It’s about balance and is about past, present, future and how they all weave together.” Though she grew up in a fundamentalist sect, she did not arrive at her own conception of a higher power until she experimented with psychedelics after leaving home. “I realized how I am connected to everything around me. I’m everything and nothing,” she says of the experience, “That also made me realize that I believe God is everything.” That belief is threaded throughout the EP. On “Catharsis,” an energetic rave-influenced track, Precious sings, “Everything is the only thing that we deserve,” which is not only a self-empowering message, but a rebuttal to the narrow-mindedness of those who wish harm on the queer community.

Though Precious has come a long way from the closeted teen she used to be, she doesn’t see the EP as the definitive statement on who she is. Rather, she conceives of the record as a capsule for a pivotal time in her journey of self-knowledge and exploration, a mirror that has been shattered and then mended. “I think that [trans people] are the embodiment of putting together that broken mirror.” As our conversation comes to a close, I can’t help but thank her for being so vulnerable and thoughtful, but she is quick to reflect her glow back on me. “At the end of the day, I’m the universe,” she tells me tenderly. “And you are also the universe. Period.”

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